I would love to pen my thoughts but some things are better left unsaid...



"I have been away for so long that I myself couldn't remember when I believed that fiction isn't living and breathing."



I happened to have thought of that quote at the instant I decided to write an entry with no proper planning or contingency plan in hand. This is suicide; skydiving without proper parachuting equipment. Nevertheless, I always will have something to say irregardless of the fact that it's all BS.

Fictional books and stories are widespread. Most of us thrive on drama, suspense and pretense to feed our ravaging stomachs. Why believe in fairy tales? Why believe that we all can close one eye and live as though nothing has affected us in any way.

The simple "tidak apa" attitude that is scourging all of us here like a bubonic plague is ravaging. We need superheroes to come and save us! Superman a.k.a Clark Kent, Batman a.k.a Bruce Wayne, Spiderman a.k.a Peter Parker, where are you guys?


Family first. How many times have we'll broken that rule? Countless for me, especially when your parents aren't too keen on supporting your musical inclinations. "What' the return out of the RM 500 that you've deposited? What's the return like? Don't you check the returns first?" Such were the lines uttered when I cracked the tip of the iceberg. I can't really blame her for thinking that way, all parents want their children to have a steady flow of income and good education that can help them later on in life. Securing a good and stable job all comes down to the one certificate called a degree.

I want to graduate with smiling looks all around me, hold up my scroll and say that I did it! But then, I just don't get it. Why procrastinate? But I'm going to be frank with all of you. It has been in my system since the day I enrolled in school. Life is a bitch. No matter what we do, we always have to say that life is always unfair at least once in our lifetime. I've said it like a million gazillion times...What does that make me? A bitch and a half?

I wonder why this entry is taking me so long to publish. Possible infection from Dr Carmen; she writes every once in a blue moon. No offense doc! But anyways, I myself admit that this entry is by far the most honest entry that has ever been published. So, the darker side of me has been revealed. Only about 20% and I'm not going to reveal it all anytime soon....