People,my apologies for really bitting on your nerves.Sometimes I hit the wrong note and then everything all goes haywire.But most importantly,I implore for lies to help me cover up what ever wrong I have done.Everyone has told me that it's not the best way to get out or even obtain something.But when has it been easy for old habits to die hard?For me it has become a part of me that sometimes I just feel depleted to lie.Lie,lie,lie.What has become of this one,small lie that in turn has betrayed me to become a monstrosity over the past years?No one knows except me.

Sometimes I lie for the right reasons.Sometimes I don't.Sometimes it's to please the arousal of laziness.All this have been the way that people have started to streotyped me.I'm not mad,just very disappointed at the fact that I'm stil the same person since day 1.Not that I don't want to change,but times when tears flow from both parties I consent.Give a day or two after that,it all dissolves back into lies.That's why I believe old habits die hard.But how easy is it?People tell me it's not right,you shouldn't do it.What's their angle when they do it?Do they feel the same way as I do?It's just not right,they don't know what we're feeling and vice versa.

Tell me one thing.All of us have lied to people that we love,right?Now,what's going on in our mind that makes want to lie even when we know it shouldn't be done?Why do we keep surging forward hoisting the mindset "It's the last time.." high?There will never be a last time.Not everyone that I know can withstand the lustful concoctions that the power of lying is able to conjure.I admit that I've lied to my friends,family,ex-girlfriends.In fact,I've even lied to God.Nothing to be proud of.I daresay that sometimes when I try too hard,it brings me to different plateau that I myself have not visited.All this bores down to the fact that a person like me will never give in to humility or honesty.What more is there to say?My point has been made but still as I write this,my thoughts go flying at the sound of a newly conceived lie.What do I tell my friend whom I promised to follow her but ended up making her angry?Tell me,should I lie?Beat the truth out of my mouth?

Let me tell you'll this; I lie for the plain,all-dominating,evil,cunning,shrewd,egoistic being that I am.I presume myself to be a monstrosity with all these lies done,it's not like it's something I should be ashamed of.Why should I?This is nothing compared to all the other lies,disappointments,heartbreaks and anger felt by others when the one simple lie that was conceived on that very moment led to the forthcoming of pain which was to be felt by others first,then me.

Sound logical?This entry maybe just the aftermath of all the events that has possibly made my life seem more short.Nothing is impossible through prayer,but for me it would be somewhat like..Interested?Check out the next entry.