i thought she of all people would understand. i thought he would understand. i miss him so much now. i wonder does he knows it?

i had a bad day.it'll pass they say. somehow more and more just come piling on. i wish he could blow it all away. i wish he knows i want to be safe, and cuddled up in his arms now. i wish he knows the many thoughts i had.

ahh..life.nothing but full of shit.almost blew up in front of BH today. i dont know why but he's really acting weird around me.is it me?this is where the attitude problem comes in.i wish he can be a bit more considerate.a bit more cooperative. being a friend instead of a 'friend'.

i miss him soooo much i wish he'd call. saw something i thought would be nice for him today. but didnt have enough cash so i had to forget bout it. decided to make him a nice meal for his upcoming birthday. i know im not spending much on him. but im really tight right now.sorry bubu. i named him bubu.felt that its cute. and there's a lot of meaning to bubu. heee..

bubu for me is like a place to be spoiled, when you feel sad and someone offer a shoulder to cry on is a bubu, bubu is when you did something wrong and the someone forgive you. cos its bubu. no one can get mad at bubu. so i named him bubu.but bubu said that bubu meant a thing to catch fish and some sea stuff..hee

i really wish i could hear his voice now.miss his singing, miss him soooo much.

im pretty sure he's mad rite now. sorry bubu. im pmsin. bear with me please.. i love my bubu.

oh i just realised something.i evolutionised bunny to bubu. heee... carry the same meaning though.